Tuesday, August 22, 2006

Of faith, love, and struggle which brings us to hope...

People change. I'd like to believe that I did. Partly because I've always wanted to but mostly because I have a reason to. I've always thought that I had to control my life, to take charge such as it is. That if I allow anyone to depend on I would lose my independence, my self-worth, my identity.

Funny I never understood the meaning of it before and I tried so hard to disprove and deny everything that had to do with it. Faith I mean. I thought I never needed it. I certainly did not think I would be one to close my mind around it. It is a powerful thing faith. Faith in God. And yet, I am still having a hard time focusing on it. Years of living under the assumption of something else has probably dampened my soul to see the truth.

Everybody needs a reason to have faith. It could be about family, work, relationships or just something as simple as walking out of your door and into the street. Now that I think about it, no one can truly say they have no faith. Even those without have faith in having no faith at all.

My reason is mostly about love and the requisite conditions that come along with it. Whoever said that love is free clearly did not understand it. Love is not free. It always comes with a price. It is the progeny of struggle. For without struggle, you cannot find out about real love.

It brings to mind the perfect example of love. The love borne of sin. The love in which Jesus died for on the cross. Love doesn't mean sacrifice but it cannot exist without it. In order to love someone, you would have to give up something. This is a concept which few would comprehend. They know the facts. They just don't understand it. It is a conditioning resulting from the way the world has taught us. Which brings us to hope.

Hope, much like faith is a powerful thing to behold. It gives people something to look forward to in the most dire circumstances. It heals wounds and saves lives when everything else points to the opposite. It is perhaps this that has shaped the world which we know of today. Hope, or the lack of it is probably responsible for most of our daily decisions without even thinking about it.

If faith brings us to believe in something and love binds it together then hope renews us when we struggle with our faith and within our love. I believe that God has a reason why He made me who I am. I may not comprehend my love for Him or Him for me yet but I have hope that He will let me see through it eventually.

It is these which allow me to change. To make me love with sacrifice. To let me dream with hope. To hold strong to my faith. For without these, then the world I know of seems so bleak indeed.

...and all that is left are faith, hope and love...and the greatest of these is love. from the Bible

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